Yes ... but also a little heartbreaking:

I really though I'd met her ... and, when I did the "just take these fucking flowers!" for real, she got it.

Sadly, however, she turned out to be ...

... very far indeed from who I had understood her to be.

In fact it transpired that she'd been acting all along, so I wasn't guilty of simply painting her as what I wanted her to be, but was was actively given to understand and encouraged to believe that my image of her was accurate, not simply a fantasy ... not a projection of myself with which I could be narcissistically infatuated, but who really was — I was actively led astray ... and I couldn't say for what reason (although I could hazard an educated guess or two).

So, I can't watch it the way I used to any more — it's been ... not ruined as such, but definitely spoiled ... for me (I no longer believe in it).

It is fun though, yes ... glad you enjoyed it.